Dat Bahamian Borderline

I know I’ve been gone for forever but I’m back… Here’s an unsolicited recap…I moved islands. Yup that’s right. I currently live on another island. I got a job as a counselor and resident advisor at a tertiary institution and I jumped on that. I’m ankle deep in DBT (dialectical behavior therapy). I’m doing okay. I still get very overwhelmed and anxious but I can tell when I’m splitting now and I can give myself a minute to recoup. Maybe too much of a minute cuz I gained like 3

People don’t always have the extensive color palette you do and trying to get them to see your vibrancy may not turn out as well as you hope.

How has culture influenced the way you interact with mental health and Borderline personality disorder ?

…I hope to feel loved next year.

Does anyone reading this blog have BPD as well? Shoot me a message. IG: @bahamian_borderline

Ya know what’s weird, it’s that feeling you get when you realize that you’ve somehow crossed over from being loved to not. It’s not the same as the fear of abandonment - that can be explained and even characterized. It’s not the fear of being lonely - that ties in well with abandonment and again can be explained and characterized. This distinct feeling is crossing over from “I can’t believe they love me, I make them happy and they make me feel the same.” - to “when did you st

This pieces explore how the BPD brain experiences repeated trauma.

The conundrum of being in a community but not part of the community.

I may need to be medicated again.

I can’t help but feel inherently defective.

What is it like to have quiet BPD? Having quiet Borderline Personality Disorder is like choking, having a completely obstructed airway and not being able to breathe or make a sound, not being able to articulate that you're dying of the pain that is stuck in your throat. What you're choking on is the pain of abandonment, loneliness and emptiness.

This is a short read on what BPD Awareness really is. For those that support people with BPD and for those diagnosed with BPD this is a candid experience of recurring depressive episodes.

There is no “may.” I have hurt me. My apology does not lie in the word “sorry” but in the steps I’m taking to be whole and healthy.

I watched Bojack Horseman in 2021. The way that that show played and continues to play on my psyche is insane. I feel like it was...